It's hard sometimes dealing with things. I know God has a plan for my life. I know in His will and timing things will be revealed. But, Im not perfect,and I struggle sometimes with the unknown. I try to take control of situations and circumstances. My husband and I have been trying to have a baby now for 6 months. Circumstances in my body prevent me from being able to properly function to make a baby without certian medications. My husband and I have many discussions and sometimes arguments about this. He feels that God can open my womb anytime He wants to. I beleive this too. But I also beleive in the supernatural as well as the natural. I have poor vision I beleive God can heal me of that,but for now He has provided me with glasses to see. I think this works the same way. He has provided me with the medication for my body to function properly. I don't want to be the person who drowned on the roof top because she let 3 boats pass her by then asks the Lord why He didnt save her. On the other hand maybe these are just my excuses to take control away from God because I want a baby NOW in My time. But I know this isnt the way it works. I know in my head we are in a season of building. we are building a foundation in our marraige that will never be shaken. And I know God does NOT need my help. He wants every part of my life and wants me to give control up to him. And I want to,I really do. So my question is,how do you stop the heartache? How do you stop the pain of seeing your friends and so many around you pregnant or with newborns? How do you stop the pain? How do you tell your heart what your head knows?

I've been going through a lot this passed year. Many trials and temptations. I couldnt figure out why that was. Ive been drawing closer and closer to the Lord. Been tithing regularly,reading my bible,praying,getting more involved in the church. And then I realized that is why these attacks have been coming. God has blessed me this past year with a husband and stepson. And together,as I mentioned above,we've been growing and doing what is right,and the devil is scared. He does not care when we are sinning and not doing God's will because we are no threat to him. He cares when we start pressing in,and doing God's will and being obediant.The bible says he comes to kill and destroy. He trys to steal our joy. What we have to realize is that he cannot take anything from us we dont allow him to. we have the covering of the most high God upon us! The next time the devil comes knocking,WE HAVE BEEN GIVEN THE POWER TO TURN HIM AWAY!!! We do NOT need to stand by and let him rob us of what the Lord has given us! WOW! Just writing this I am getting goosebumps! I am so happy to be a child of God! AMEN and yea God!!!!!

John 10:10 (NIV)
"The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full."

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